Not what you may think but a different kind of "grind".
The grind of managing my household without any other help from another adult like person. For the past 6 weeks I've had either my mother here or James. While he was in Uganda my mom was here to help out with managing household duties. Then she went home and James had 2 weeks off before having to head back to work. He helped out with the kids tremendously. But now here I am, today the first day in 6 weeks.
I am reminded about how "managing my household" is an ongoing struggle for me. Reading through my archives it is quite unbelievable how often I posted about needing a schedule/routine and about household duties and failing at it all. Always seeming to be the biggest hurdle of my life.
So, I've come to a conclusion...it is not just a matter of "managing my household" but a deeper matter of the heart.
I shall pray.
From the Wisdom of Sirach:
Like the sun rising in the Lord's heaven
Is the beauty of a good wife in the ordering of her house. (26:16)