Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Do you ever feel like....

...you have no one to talk to? Like your mind is racing with so many thoughts you will explode if you can't share them someone? If you can't get advice from someone? But you just don't know that there is anyone out there who would understand or even want to understand?
Do you ever feel like you can't talk about it because than everyone will know your deepest darkest sins? Because then they'll think bad of you and they'll think bad of your husband and children?
How can you possibly share all of your fears and frustrations and still have someone who will care? Who will still love you despite all of your failings?

So you just sit back and let it simmer within all the while praying, begging God to have mercy. Praying and begging God to show you how to TALK TO HIM!!!!

Sometimes I think I have these feelings because I am all alone all day long with no other adults to converse with. No one else to share joy and sorrow with. I'm left to figure it out all by myself.(This is a whole other post.)


Anonymous said...


I feel that way all the time. Every once in a while, I venture out, I stick my foot forward and try and express it to someone else, and they usually end up looking at me like I'm an alien, and so I retreat back. I haven't given up yet trying, but as you express it, I can relate. It is a lonely place. Maybe everyone feels this way, I don't know. But even when I express that, when I test the waters a little, I still get the look that says "hmmm....not sure what you mean".

So I don't know....whatever.


Susan Sophia said...

Thank you so much for sharing, Chance.
I had another post all ready to go this morning titled "The last post wasn't meant to scare people away..." but one of the kids came and "x" the window out and it disappeared! Maybe God was telling me something? :)

You are right. Why is it that we've closed ourselves up so tightly we can't let anyone in? I suspect that far more people feel this way it is just something one does not talk about. It's a mindset we've established in our society that happiness=sanity or maybe it's the way we are raised in the school's where kids are intolerable of one anothers differences. If you are in the least bit different from someone your friends look at you funny. We are raised in that, for 13+ years we are impregnated with this idea that it is AWEFUL and strange to be different in any way, shape or form. So don't tell anybody anything that might make you appear different.

Thanks again for sharing!

I hope I can stir up from the back of my brain that which was erased earlier today when child #2 hit "x".

We think of you guys all the time and hope all is well!!! Miss you! Give my love to Cybil and Salome.